Here is a little example of the new way I am working… Very different!!!! Where once I was surrounded by piles and stacks of papers, some textured, some not; some filed in drawers, some bits and pieces stashed away in drawers; it would take a considerable amount of time to figure out the right papers to pick with the right amount of contrast. Now everything is neatly tucked away in a tiny little file folder on a desktop on a computer screen and all I have to do is tap it to do whatever I want with it.
How I do like that!!! Well, especially because I will be moving shortly and space in the new place is going to be a luxury I imagine. I am paring down my life in all forms… adapting a new lifestyle — that is the plan anyway… Going minimalist. Right now I’m selling most of my belongings and possessions save art supplies and some keepsakes. It seems that suddenly I just have no feeling for anything in my past…well maybe a few things; centering around my son and our love and life together…but most of everything else has lost it’s meaning to me. Could it be old age? haha maybe I just don’t want to die with a lot of stuff that my kid would have to deal with and be burdened by.
But this change makes sense for me I think; because I have been a packrat for a great many years. I am now rejecting that mode of thinking. Where once before I had many, many interests I am trying to pare down and stream line my hobbies: my creative projects ~ because I have discovered that while pursuing many different things was exciting and kept things interesting; I didn’t give it much chance to flourish before I was off to the next thing. But then again, I was discovering who I am…I have a feeling I am not done exploring btw. But to be fair, life was chaotic for a good many years and there was a lot of changes to adapt to. At any rate, I’m happy to say it is getting less so chaotic….and I am now protecting that aspect of my life. Fiercely. A lot of doors are closing. AND the next time I buy something it’s going to have to be pretty spectacular to return home with me. That’s all I can say. I have stopped creating a museum in my home and now crave experiences. heh The next chapter in my life I hope to be quite adventurous; because I will be heading into my sixties. OMG. Weird. Time really does fly. And I hope to be having some good fun in the process of whatever lies ahead of me.
theresa Smythe Arts 